my little drummer boy

Feeling Defeated and Then Winning

It's been that kind of week for me. Things have just been piling up and leaving me with a very discouraging feeling. It's more a feeling of defeat. Like I was drowning in life and unable to catch my breath. Most days I was close to tears just thinking about how tired I was.

I got sick for the first time in years and that wore me down. That was about 4 weeks ago and I'm still not over it. But, when you're a mom you don't have time to get sick. And if you do get sick there's no time to recover.

I was seeking support from a friend a few days ago. Every once in a while I need reassurance that I'm not the only mom that goes through this. The very next day Aaron called my mom and asked her to pick a time when she would be able to take all 4 kids so I could get some rest. He knew that I would never ask for help on my own so he did it for me. My mom took the kids yesterday and had them over night. I slept for 9 hours straight before I woke on my own. I tried remembering the last time I got to sleep with out seeing at least every other hour in the night. I couldn't. I feel like a new mom. Just getting one night of good sleep has done wonders for me mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I think I finally got my footing and won!

Wordless Wednesday

Cutest little football player EVER!